A Reminder To Myself

There are many things that I should be thankful for, and I need a reminder of how beautiful life is despite whatever negativity is going on around me. Not trying to shy away from negativity, because confronting it will eventually be part of my life's journey, but just to nudge myself to keep a positive outlook of my life. With my chin up and a smile on my face, I know that God has been good to me.

Even though I'm fighting cancer, I have been receiving proper treatment for it. I'm struggling with the side effects of chemotherapy, but it's better than having the cancer grow into uncontrollable proportions. The fact that I'm on a road to healing means a lot of me, my fiance, my family and friends. I know this because there are so many people in my life who have showed concern and have showered me with care. These are the true signs of community. The compassion that they can show is amazing. I mean, check it out... some of these people were not even that close to me, but they genuinely reach out. And some of them, I had plenty of "heartbreaks" with, and still genuinely try to encourage me. Life is just full of surprises.

And even though there's a lot of loans to get paid, I am employed full-time. That's a blessing. Especially in the economy that we're in. And I'm teaching music - something that I'm good at. It's better that I learn how to be patient, and know that in time, most of these loans will be paid. Besides, I'm learning a valuable skill of budgeting.

Spiritually, I've always had a quest for the Truth and growing in Faith has never been an easy option. Despite the spiritual struggles, I will not opt out. There are a lot of things that I can't know for sure, but one thing I do know is that I want to believe. My Faith is still something that I can hang on to whenever I really need a breather.

Keeping my head up is not easy, but it is simple to do.

I just have to do it.

5th Round of Chemo

Well, truth be told, it was rough. I had a good record of not vomiting, but it took over me. It's not just a battle of nausea anymore, it's also a battle of trying to keep everything down.

So far, I'm still optimistic about my chances of going through only one more round of chemo. But only time will tell.

Preparing the kids for a little presentation for Black History month. I hope it goes well. Not sure how prepared they will be since we're having all these snow days.

Reserving my strength so I can do some chores at home. :)