being the fool that i am, i gave all my heart to her too early again! so now, i'm once again trapped in my own humiliation. i am once again crushed, defeated, hurt, abandoned, played around with, and thrown away.
what's amazing about all these things is that my God pulled through for me again. if it wasn't for Him, i would have never found out what was really happening. thank you my Lord! to God be the glory!
why is it so painful this time around? simple. because at least in the past, in my previous relationships, my partner had enough courage to let me know about the third party. they confronted me and told me the truth straight away. it was obvious that they didn't want to be with me. no games were played. "by chance", was never a reason they gave. and at least i didn't have to live a lie. sigh.
i feel like that child again. back to that time when my real father left my mom. sigh.
my opportunity to be emo.
no. wait. my opportunity to be strong. oops.
oh well.
