just got through an operation. took out my ingrown toenail. ouch.
the pain is crazy. it can get unbearable sometimes.
oh well.
Saturday, March 26, 2005
Friday, March 25, 2005
o?
oh ano nah?
eto, okee lang.
in deep thought most of the time. Carnegie Hall auditions on April 10. i MUST make it through. i'm not failing this one. no brothers and sisters, i'm not failing this one. haha.
i love you May. i'm wrong about wanting it to end. i want it to last. forever. i love you May.
neil s. reyes, know your place man. be a friend. and that's it. know your place. know your place.
it's a song. haha.
oh well.
eto, okee lang.
in deep thought most of the time. Carnegie Hall auditions on April 10. i MUST make it through. i'm not failing this one. no brothers and sisters, i'm not failing this one. haha.
i love you May. i'm wrong about wanting it to end. i want it to last. forever. i love you May.
neil s. reyes, know your place man. be a friend. and that's it. know your place. know your place.
it's a song. haha.
oh well.
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
eto.
eto ulit ang makulit. haha.
wala lang. walang magawa eh. blog tayo.
as of now, i don't know what i'm suppose to tell my love. i mean, she knows i'm really happy for her. but oh well. its the way life walks for me. its been a trend with me to be far away from the one i truly love.
maybe its just the sick way of God playing with my emotions.
am i destined to be a spiritual leader? i doubt it. i'm so imperfect. too imperfect. perfectly imperfect. beat that. haha.
i've only ten fingers. i don't think i can count anymore loses.
oh and by the way, i'm not inlove with two people. i love her and only her. yes, you might say i'm a flirt. but so what? you think flirting brings you happiness? think again. because at the end of the day, you're going to be at your bed and you'll be thinking of how shallow everything was. besides, it's all a mask. why wear a mask you ask? come on. like as if you don't wear masks. haha. i bet you do too. just that it's different from the one i have on. anyway, i'm just really glad to know that i'll live by to see through this turmoil.
it's beautiful what i have, but it's ugly what is given to me.
can't feel. can't touch. no hugs. no regular calls. no walks, nor runs. no sharing of that single strand of sphagetti. no movies. no dating! no dinners, nor lunches. not even breakfast. so beyond my reach.
oh well. it is the sick way God toys with me. He's training me for something bigger. oh well. Thy Will Be Done.
i don't want to fight too hard against Him anyway. i've lost more than a million times. i'm like, "okee". haha.
sure, i do love her. but seriously, sometimes you just can't help but think, "is love enough?"
sigh. i wish it would never end though. but somehow, i kinda do.
wala lang. walang magawa eh. blog tayo.
as of now, i don't know what i'm suppose to tell my love. i mean, she knows i'm really happy for her. but oh well. its the way life walks for me. its been a trend with me to be far away from the one i truly love.
maybe its just the sick way of God playing with my emotions.
am i destined to be a spiritual leader? i doubt it. i'm so imperfect. too imperfect. perfectly imperfect. beat that. haha.
i've only ten fingers. i don't think i can count anymore loses.
oh and by the way, i'm not inlove with two people. i love her and only her. yes, you might say i'm a flirt. but so what? you think flirting brings you happiness? think again. because at the end of the day, you're going to be at your bed and you'll be thinking of how shallow everything was. besides, it's all a mask. why wear a mask you ask? come on. like as if you don't wear masks. haha. i bet you do too. just that it's different from the one i have on. anyway, i'm just really glad to know that i'll live by to see through this turmoil.
it's beautiful what i have, but it's ugly what is given to me.
can't feel. can't touch. no hugs. no regular calls. no walks, nor runs. no sharing of that single strand of sphagetti. no movies. no dating! no dinners, nor lunches. not even breakfast. so beyond my reach.
oh well. it is the sick way God toys with me. He's training me for something bigger. oh well. Thy Will Be Done.
i don't want to fight too hard against Him anyway. i've lost more than a million times. i'm like, "okee". haha.
sure, i do love her. but seriously, sometimes you just can't help but think, "is love enough?"
sigh. i wish it would never end though. but somehow, i kinda do.
ay
so discouraged by the fact that she might go somewhere else... however, i know i should try to be happy for her. bluntly put, "it's her life". oh well.
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
la lang...
Neil S. Reyes...
no one knows this blog anyway.
just feel like losing it. i didn't make it to the finals. the piano auditions were great cos apparently, the judges liked my playing. oh well. i guess i'm really just not good enough.
looked over some old emails. wow. i can't believe some of them. i've stored soooo much email. some memories were beautiful, mesmerizing, and some painful. i'm getting old...
i don't know what to do to you... i just love you so much. i feel like i can die happy right now at this moment. and i don't even care if i went to hell. cos being loved by you was already heaven...
no one knows this blog anyway.
just feel like losing it. i didn't make it to the finals. the piano auditions were great cos apparently, the judges liked my playing. oh well. i guess i'm really just not good enough.
looked over some old emails. wow. i can't believe some of them. i've stored soooo much email. some memories were beautiful, mesmerizing, and some painful. i'm getting old...
i don't know what to do to you... i just love you so much. i feel like i can die happy right now at this moment. and i don't even care if i went to hell. cos being loved by you was already heaven...
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