great minds

great minds.

i've always fancied them. they have their own battles that they have fought, and won. and some, lost. i've been reflecting lately on some of their lives... haha. trying to live like them perhaps? i keep asking myself, what makes them the genius they are?

i can never fully comprehend their minds, but i'm sure just like most of us... they feel their emotions just like any of us would.

and i believe i have schizophrenia. i hear voices. yikes. oh well. i just ignore them though... is that bad? my friend who's studying to become a doctor says it may be depression... but... i'm not depressed what. haha.

oh well.

then i linked that to the "great minds"... haha. they had their own "mental illnesses" too. weeeeeee! becoming like them perhaps? haha.

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i have been reflecting upon how i've been influencing my siblings too. haha. my sister would have never known how to ride a bike if it wasn't for me. she would have never met Kai, if it wasn't for me. my lil bro would have never been able to shoot the basketball if it wasn't for me. and his computer wouldn't have been running if it wasn't for me either... haha.

i love em. i'll take a bullet for em.

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those great minds, most of them have, or at least had, wives. haha. and the more "succesful" great minds have had only one wife. yep. that's amazing... because it takes a lot of comprehension and patience on the wives' part. hehe.

mi love, would you stick by me like the great minds' wives did? haha.

even though i think i have schizophrenia? haha.

oh well. you're my doctor, May.

My One True Mate

Now, now... this has a copyright on it so you guys can only read this, but not re-write it. =) even if you do... just quote me. thanks. appreciate it... =)

*My One True Mate*

When you said that I was your dream come true,
I grew a pair of wings and like a bird I flew.
Can we live those memories again?
I wouldn't want this dream to come to an end.

For life without you is simply incomplete,
and life without you, happiness depletes.
So stay with me and don't let pain pass by
Together we'll grow our wings and like the birds we'll fly.

God is there a test that I can take?
To know if she is mine to keep for lovers' sake.
Remember when I said that you're my dream come true?
Till now you're that dream so don't bid me adieu.

For you inspire me to write the songs I sing,
And you inspire me to keep my world shining.
So stay with me and don't let pain pass by,
Together we'll grow our wings and like the birds we'll fly.

On my knees I beg you please don't leave,
Because I love you truly and my care I'll give.
No matter how long or far I will wait,
My heart belongs to you, my love, my one true mate.

hey love, i know rite, so cliche. haha. but i could tell you liked it though. =) haha. just wana say thanks to my "teachers" and to those who have helped me with the inspirations. =) most especially to you, May. *HUGS, my little princess...

haha. argh! i can't believe i wrote this! haha! oh well! LOVE YOU MAY!

was never easy...

two versions of St. Francis' prayer...

the first...

THE PRAYER OF ST. FRANCIS

Lord, make me a channel of thy peace,
that where there is hatred, I may bring love;
that where there is wrong, I may bring the spirit of forgiveness;
that where there is discord, I may bring harmony;
that where there is error, I may bring truth;
that where there is doubt, I may bring faith;
that where there is despair, I may bring hope;
that where there are shadows, I may bring light;
that where there is sadness, I may bring joy.
Lord, grant that I may seek rather to comfort than to be comforted;
to understand, than to be understood;
to love, than to be loved.
For it is by self-forgetting that one finds.
It is by forgiving that one is forgiven.
It is by dying that one awakens to Eternal Life. Amen.

the second...

Lord, make us instruments
of your peace.
Where there is hatred
let us sow love;
Where there is injury, pardon;
Where there is discord, union;
Where there is doubt, faith;
Where there is despair, hope;
Where there is darkness, light;
Where there is sadness, joy.

Grant that we may not
so much seek
To be consoled as to console;
To be understood
as to understand;
To be loved as to love.

For it is in giving
that we receive;
It is in pardoning
that we are pardoned;
And it is in dying that we are
born to eternal life.

Amen.

i pray that i may be able to stand by this... and that i may be an example to many. =)

the complete package...

so i got a little tipsy because i celebrated our 8th month anniversary. and so when i drank, i was reminded that next time around, when its our 2 years, or 3 years anniversary, i'd be with her drinking once more. haha.

but yeah... its awesome. its been too magnificent. sometimes i even feel that i'm "unworthy" of the kindness that God has given me - her. i love you May, i really do.

a little re-cap...

the first day was kinda scary. she had a reputation for disliking guys from SA. well, that's pretty ironic. haha. but yeah, i had a reputation too. but whatever it was... our reputations broke down in a snap of a finger. just like that, our lives became intertwined, and the perplexity of living our everyday lives has become more enjoyable. all of a sudden, there was reason to breathe again. all of a sudden, life became meaningful once more.

but like all human relationships, we had our rough times too. we've learned much from one another, and we continually do as we grow in love each day. i'm just so thankful that despite my demands, she has stayed with me all these while. =)

i just want to thank you from the bottom of my heart, May.

thanks for all the times you've opened up to me,
thanks for all the smiles you've brought me,
thanks for the joy,
the hope,
the peace,
the company,
the kisses,
the hugs,
the patience,
the compassion,
the encouragement,
the lessons,
the lectures,
the ring,
the promise,
for being you,
for making me feel brand new,
for making me - ME,
for allowing me to be ME,
for trusting me,
the warmth,
the belief,
the faith,
for being so loyal,
for being so faithful,
for being so trustworthy,
the wisdom,
the guidance,
the support,
and above all... thank you my little princess for the LOVE that you have given me.

with you, i am growing as a person. and with you, i see things clearer. with you, i feel that there is no better place than earth. with you, i feel that heaven is earth. with you, there is constant yearning, and with you, there is infinite satisfaction.

thank you for the most wonderful 8 months of my life. and as we march into the future, i pray that our love grows more with each day. indeed, an exponential curve. =)

i love you. i love you so much. *HUGS thank you.

-neilzmuzic.